Tomorrow will mark the 2 week countdown to the end of my vacation. I don't think I would be so anxious about it if I were returning to my previous job. However, in two weeks I'll be starting a new job at a new school with little kids (who sometimes freak me out). I'm a year more experienced which should mean I know things but I feel even less prepared than before the beginning of last year. I'm sure there's a certain level of expectation from my new school because of my 1 year of experience under my belt which makes it even worse.

Last night, after one dream about pirates (we saw Pirates of the Carribean last night & then came home to watch "The True Pirates of the Carribean" on the History Channel) I had a dream about what my first day at work was going to be like. First of all, i was late cause I didn't set my alarm & also forgot that I need to be there early to greet the kids. Then I felt insecure so I went back to the high school to visit & some of the kids forgot about me & then I felt bad cause I had to tell them I wasn't their counselor anymore. I tried to counsel some kids using the Connect Four but turns out I had about 4 hours to kill.

I've accepted the fact that my 1st year will be a challenge. I've accepted that the 1st semester will be most difficult. It's going to be a world away from what I was trained to do in my internship & during my first year. Problems will be different. Jobs will be different. Techniques will be different. I hope with all this change brings positive outcomes. I'm sure it will. In the meantime, my anxiety will still linger as my summer vacation melts away & the countdown to the next holiday begins.